I got away from my meditation practice. For many months.
It always seemed like a good idea when I thought about it, and I still didn’t actually do it more than occasionally. Committing to 20-30 minutes of doing nothing — well, it seemed like I didn’t have time. I had other things to do.
This is after years of meditating and a full year of daily sitting.
Hmmm. The mind plays tricks, takes itself way too seriously, makes excuses, avoids.
I missed it, and when a friend told me she gets out of bed and sits first thing every day, it inspired me to start again.
I was also inspired by the film The Dhamma Brothers, about a program in an Alabama prison where inmates did vipassana meditation, 10 days of silent sitting. It was profound to see peace on the faces of men who had committed terrible crimes.
One inmate said:
I thought my biggest fear was growing old and dying in prison. In truth, my biggest fear was growing old and not knowing myself.
Meditation has always been about facing my self, from the day I started, so tentatively, having realized that nothing else I had tried was taking my suffering away, so I might at least fully face it.
It didn’t take it away, but I quickly understood that my experience was larger than my suffering.
Aren’t we all in prisons of some kind? Fears, mindless behaviors, disconnections, denial, insane beliefs…
I want to know myself. And that in itself is such a koan, I felt inspired to sit with it.
Getting on the computer first thing in the morning is my worst distraction. I seem to have developed an affinity for my laptop, for Facebook, email, checking my blog stats, reading what interests me. Time can get away from me. It’s like an addiction.
So I realized that I need to sit first thing. Actually, I do a couple of sun salutations first. Otherwise, more of my attention goes to my aches and pains when I sit.
Yoga frees my mind to pay more attention to noticing my thoughts and sensing the subtle energies.
Today I experienced this:
Indeed, the ineffability of the air seems akin to the ineffability of awareness itself, and we should not be surprised that many indigenous peoples construe awareness, or ‘mind,’ not as a power that resides inside their heads, but rather as a quality that they themselves are inside of, along with the other animals and the plants, the mountains and the clouds. ~ David Abram
Tom Best would love that quote. Living inside of awareness. Sweet. I miss him.
I’ve been giving 15-20 massages a week, and my body is feeling it. I like the honesty of physical work, and I’m learning about remedies like rosemary oil for achy thumbs, trigger points on the forearm, wrist stretches.
Immersing myself in the cold waters of Barton Springs and snorkeling a lap is very, very good for aches and pains. I sleep well.
I’ve also changed up my mouth care routine. I’m brushing with turmeric (if you try it, be careful because it stains towels and possibly porcelain, but it whitens teeth and reduces inflammation in gum pockets), tongue scraping, flossing, oil pulling with organic coconut oil (sometimes adding a drop of peppermint or clove oil).
I do the oil pulling for 20 minutes most days.
So far, my teeth are whiter, my mouth feels cleaner, and my breath smells good throughout the day.
I’ve done this about a week now. I want to do it for a couple of months and see if it makes a big difference. Some folks claim that oil pulling has huge unexpected health benefits; some say that’s because it reduces inflammation in the mouth and body.
I’ll let you know.
Finally, I am planning to start a new 21-day challenge on Sept. 1, ending on the fall equinox. I will be doing The Work of Byron Katie, starting with her Judge Your Neighbor worksheet.
I will do at least one worksheet online so people can see how The Work actually works.
I’m also re-reading her book, Loving What Is (which she autographed for me last time I saw her!), and will add insights from that and the workshops I’ve attended.
If you’d like to do it along with me, here’s a link to the worksheet online.