I’ve asked the four questions about my judgment “my father didn’t care about me”.
I continue the inquiry process about this painful thought, which I’ve already established isn’t true, by turning it around. There are three turnarounds in The Work. The first one asks me to turn the statement around to myself.
“My father didn’t care about me” gets turned around like this:
I didn’t care about me.
How did I not care about myself?
Katie asks for at least three instances of each turnaround, but even more important is that the turnarounds penetrate and set you free.
- I did not ask my father for more attention. How could he have known I wanted it if I didn’t say so? I didn’t care about myself enough to make this request. I didn’t even give him a chance to respond (or not).
- I kept my feelings completely to myself. I did not tell anyone that I was unhappy about my relationship with my father. I was clueless about what I could have done about it, and I assumed others would be clueless too. That might not have been the case. This is a new realization.
- Because my father didn’t care about me and I was therefore unworthy, this low self-esteem spilled over into other areas of my life. I can see that now with hindsight. I was rather troubled back then and did not pursue living up to my full potential. I did not believe in myself or my abilities back then. This realization is also a new insight.
It takes self-respect to ask for attention, to tell someone when feeling troubled, and to deal with a problem before it grows.
Next: turning it around to the other.