I woke up today and decided to give myself Reiki before I even got out of bed.
This transition from a full-time serious stressful but secure job to a state of limbo — and eventual return to school to study integrative medicine — has included some moments of feeling fear in my gut.
So much is uncertain — when will my house sell? Will I get what I’m asking? Should I go back to work, and if so, when, doing what, working full-time or part-time, or cobbling together several different income streams? Will my plans to buy a vintage trailer to make my new home come to fruition?
That feeling of fear in my gut is old conditioning. I am aware of the situation. There is no emergency. I don’t enjoy the feeling, and I don’t get that it’s helping me in any way.
I intend to explore my fear. Instead of tapping it away, I can inquire within:
- What am I thinking when it arises?
- What unconscious beliefs am I holding that I can bring to light, review, and consciously decide to keep, modify, or put up on the dusty shelf in the Museum of Old Beliefs?
- Can I sponsor a dialog to build empathy, communication, and congruency between my head, heart, and gut?
- Can I dive into the fear with awareness?
- Can I breathe into it?
- Can I go beneath it to discover the essence?
Back to doing Reiki in bed. My cat kept wanting to lie on me, like he just couldn’t get close enough. I did Reiki on him first.
My preparation for the session (see yesterday’s post) really energized my feet. I did my session, noticing that my body received energy from my hands strongly at my second chakra, the location of fear, the center of gut intelligence.
Then I got up, made tea, sat down at the computer, and read an email from Bill Hornback:
Please tell me what “grounded” means to you – I’m doing a little research project for work, where they don’t understand this concept. Thanks!
I emailed Bill this:
Bill–Grounding used to be a more intellectual concept for me that meant someone was practical, i.e., grounded in reality instead of head up in the clouds.Now I get that those are metaphors for an actual state of existence.My acupuncturist gave me some foot exercises to open up the meridians in my feet (so many start or end in the feet), and after a few days, I felt like I was walking around with big balls of light/energy on my feet, like huge houseshoes! I FEEL the energetic connection between my feet and the earth. It’s like magnetism. It’s like every step I take, I’m dancing with the planet.Hope this helps. I’m blogging about this today!Mary Ann ReynoldsYoga Teacher and NLP Coach512-507-4184blog: zafureport.wordpress.com“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” ~ Howard Thurman
My current wisdom is that I need to take some precious, precious time to work on myself. Doing Reiki self-treatments at this time is pure genius, if I do say so myself.
The work will come, and I will clearly recognize the work that’s right for me, and I will be truly ready to greet it when it does.
The house will sell to loving new owners at good value for us both.
I will land on my feet in a new smaller abode to make my home.
And all will be well, and all will be well, and all will be well.