I finally figured something out, something that has been fishy for a long time where I work, that no one will speak openly about, like a shameful family secret.
I have wracked my brain trying to figure out what makes sense about this situation, which has been rather crazy-making.
I went into a theta state listening to a new CD, and I got an image of being in a rowboat out on the water, and the large and long arms of a woman who remained submerged reached up and grabbed control of the boat.
Oh, and when the other chief instigator of crazy-making, the one who is not submerged but deeply connected with long-armed woman’s energy, came into my office to say hello, I just happened to be watching this hilarious video.
The image and that “coincidence” tell me a story about what’s really going on.
I’m going to use this blog post to address this shadowy, long-armed woman. Everyone else who reads it, please pray for the most wounded of the two women to find peace. We will work on the other one later.
I know who you are, and it is time for you to completely let go. Way past time. This is no way to be living your life, through someone else.
I am sorry that you are in so much emotional pain and carry such a great need to control things. There must be a great well of tender vulnerability underneath that furious need to control others.
Your path to true happiness — and it is as available to you as to anyone else — lies in fully acknowledging your vulnerability and your fear.
Life is short, time passes quickly, and with it our only chance. Soften.
Let go of the need to control, let down your guard, and heal your heart.
By doing this, amazingly, you become able to lovingly protect yourself, tend to your own life, and become the magnanimous, self-surrendering, courageous, forgiving person that you really are.
You can find the help you need.
Best wishes to you. Now go your own way.