I’ve reached day 20. The gratitude challenge ends tomorrow. Today I’m reviewing.
Here’s my parade of gratitudes so far, day by day:
- My cat Mango. My house. The internet.
- My daughter. Women friends. Gifted intuitive healers.
- My health. A car wreck. The best novel ever.
- Water falling from the sky. Mexican food. Saying no.
- Generosity. Root vegetables. An offer on my house.
- Doing this challenge. Imperfection. A day with my granddaughter, Hannah.
- NLP. Challenges. Resources.
- Asking for what you need. Seeking work. Integrative Chakra Breathwork.
- Options are the antidote to anxiety. Offers on my house. Work possibilities.
- The 4-Hour Body. Teaching yoga. Yes.
- Signing a contract on my house. Relationship challenges. Housewife on LSD video.
- Father and infant daughter. New watch. Pigeon pose.
- Meta position. The Metta Sutra. A good night’s sleep.
- Being a mad scientist. Having a wise realtor. Leaving home.
- Inner bigness. Jedi warrior Keith Fail. Awareness.
- Job interview. Insights. Shared dreams.
- My car. My house. My friends.
- The Work. Cat-moving advice. T-Mobile.
- Byron Katie. Life as it is. 5,000 blog views.
(By the way, as of this moment, this blog has gotten 5,019 views. Thank you again for reading, connecting energetically, commenting. I appreciate you.)
I see from this list a mix of specific gratitudes, for specific people, a video, a book, a company, a sutra, and more.
I also see broad areas of gratitude — insights, awareness, inner bigness, life as it is, no, yes.
Hmmm. I passed my own “chunk size” test! Yay! The object is not to be stuck in the details or in the big picture. It’s to have flexible perspective, to be able to see both the forest and the trees.
I am grateful to have the flexibility to zoom in and out on life with a measure of ease. I believe this skill is something I began developing since my very first day of NLP practitioner training several years ago. I hold the universe and an acorn in the palm of my hand. It helps tremendously with my equanimity — it helps me know I can be ready for anything. That confidence is priceless.
This 21-day challenge has coincided with selling my house. I had no offers on day 1, and now I have a contract and what looks like a pretty solid bet on closing February 18. Since I’ve often marked eras in my life by the home I was living in at the time, I am in transit, ending one era and beginning another.
It’s also coincided with a lot of attention to my work. On day 1, I was happily jobless, except for my joyous work as a yoga teacher and an NLP coach/change shaman offering free or low-priced sessions to get experience and build a reputation.
Meanwhile, my vision of my future work/identity keeps evolving. My plan had been to start as a full-time student at AOMA in July. I still love AOMA, and now I’m not so sure that becoming an acupuncturist is right for me. Nowadays it is hard to build a full-time practice in Austin, which has two acupuncture schools. I have time to get clear on this.
I believe I could become an exceptional acupuncturist, as long as I can practice “everything else” alongside it. But for me, maybe “everything else” is more to the point. I’m still working on this.
I’m considering getting other training, which may include classwork at AOMA. I have a couple of key words to guide me: blockages and beliefs. These words are about working with the body and the mind, i.e., touching and talking, and came to me during this challenge. That’s the big picture. Maybe massage school is where I need to start, to get a license to touch.
I can do Reiki now, without a license. Thank you, Jonathan, for attuning me.
I can do the verbal changework now under the banner of a coach or consultant, or, my favorite, well-being shaman.
It’s all energy work.
In the practical realm, due to the uncertainties of when I would actually close on my house, and desiring to keep my technical writing skills marketable until I have fully made the transit to self-employment, I updated my resume one day and spent the next day responding to job postings and sending it to recruiters for contract work. I heard from a recruiter that day, had an interview a few days later, and received and accepted an offer the day after that.
Honestly, I didn’t know it would be that easy, and that it was has touched my heart. Thank you, Universe, for showing my humble self that I’m on the right track. I hope to be doing contract work over the next couple of years to pay the bills as I get the training I need.
I’m incredibly grateful for the freedom I have. Especially when I compare myself to so many people in the world who can’t live where they want or do the work that they want, to people who feel trapped. (Actually, these are the people I want to work with.)
I can sell my house and buy a trailer!
I can quit a “permanent” job and do contract work to pay the bills and keep my skills marketable and have an adventure!
I can teach yoga and offer NLP/changework sessions and do The Work!
I can explore my desired life work and how best to learn and do that!
I can literally change my mind!
I am incredibly lucky and grateful that my life gives me these choices.